3 posts tagged “sunshine”

Tonight we went to see the Kings play the Lightening and I was really excited to see Vinny Lecavalier and Martin St. Louis play. Although it is said how far they have fallen from last year to this. There is no goals race for Vinny this year and few highlight rolls for St. Louis. Tampa Bay is nigh the bottom of the bucket and looking to be going no where but down. They did manage to win tonight and beat the Kings but only because they showed a little life. Their attempts weren't orchestrated so much as chaotic reels that defied logic. And the Kings seemed just as harassed so in the end it was a crap shoot. The Lightening came out on top because Ersberg was letting everything but tour busses in. It was a sad night to be a King. I do have to say I did like Evgeny Artyukhin. I like his size and the way he moves and how he is in the middle of everything. He takes the body and he can draw penalties and now if we could only get him on the Sharks then I could see a lot more of him! If only I were in charge of trades. Going to games makes me excited about hockey again. I have been so off it this season. I don't even know why. Last year I watched two games a night most nights, even for teams I didn't particularly care for. This year I spend the time hockeys on reading. I'm not feeling connected to it. Going to games makes me feel like I could watch it a again. Like I want to come home and turn on a game. Maybe I'll watch tomorrow night. Maybe it will make me feel more normal.

Friday night will be Battlestar night and I'm of two minds of it. I have a hard time looking forward to the end. I guess that is pessimistic because I'm not seeing it as looking forward to more BSG, but rather the end of it all. I am not looking forward to Lee and Dee dating again. That just depresses me. I want it all to end with Lee and Kara together. I am ready to hate the President again. She's so annoying. Why haven't they let her sucumb to cancer already? It will be interesting to see what they make of earth. And how far they push Kara. Will I be happy? Probably not. The only thing they could do to make me fall back in love with the show is Lee and Kara together. That is all.

Tomorrow is another Gym day. I've been trying to go 4 times a week. Spending 30 minutes with strength training and then 45 minutes on the bicycle. I am usually sweaty and excerise high by the time I'm done. I am so impatient. I want to see results already and D has to remind me that it will be at least 6 months before I start to actually notice a change in weight or physical difference. I hope that I don't lose heart and stop going because I just won't wait. I am childish that way. Maybe I could look at it as just getting through one day at a time. Like tomorrow will just be the Tuesday that I have to get through and Wednesday will be that day. It's easier than thinking I have to get through 26 weeks of waiting. And I very badly want to look different.

I read Wondrous Strange yesterday and it was a very good book. It reminded me in pacing and mood a little of Northern Lights/Golden Compass. I loved Sonny. I found his narative very interesting to follow. Kelley annoyed and bored me a little. That is just how most books go for me. I love the boy and the girl just needles me. I liked the story. I found the book an incredibly easy read. I hope that after Sunshine, the Secret Circle and his Wheel of Time books that D will read it. I'd like to talk to him about it.

Today I started Falcondance and I spoiled myself because I was getting rather high hopes that Nicias and Oliza would overcome odds and pair up but it doesn't look like it. I like Nicias and I am interested in seeing how the world away from the Diente and Tuuli Thea pans out. I still have Wolfcry and Wyvernhail to read after this. I liked Danica and Zane as teens. Now it is 20 years later. I find the Kiesha'ra books to be a little too reaching. I hope that the next one isn't 20 more years in the future.

I wish I didn't have to sleep. That I could read all night and all day.

Thursday night D and I went to see the Kings play the Ducks at the Staples Center. For once I routed for the Kings. I got to cheer when Kopi scored and everything. It was enlightening. Although I have to admit I fell in love a little with a Duck named Bobby Ryan-- who scored a hat trick that night. Lovely hands, exceptional feet--he's the complete package. If D hadn't picked him up for his team, I'd have taken him for mine. I don't like watching the Ducks but I will happily do so to see him. Exceptional! As for Kopi, I get to see him again on Monday.

I finished Sunshine today. I really loved Constantine but I'm not sure that I loved the end of his story. As for Sunshine. She was the equivalent of dry bread for the majority of the book. All she talked about was cinnamon rolls and baking and it got old realy quickly. I did love that it changed her towards the end but it was a little too late for me.Spoiler: I didn't like that she was on the fence about Con for so fucking long. I would have liked if she had slept with him and then dealt with it. Still despite me not liking the writing style which was dispersed with tangents and notes, I don't think I will mooch the book. At some point I may feel the need to read it again-- while skimming heavily the points with the SOF and Mel, whom I didn't like for the sake of him being in the way of the story I wanted to read. I still think that story is there. Spoiler: You don't end the book with them not being able to be apart from one another if you don't expect to go to that place. I give the book 3 out of 5 stars for the style but a 4 for the story itself. But don't believe any of the accolades on the back of the book... they don't really apply. There isn't romance in the book really at all, and fans of Buffy will just be confused.

I started a Blaze book today. I haven't read any in weeks and I figured it would be good to recalibrate with something of normal contemporary romance. Of course what I piced is a time travel story, but, hey. I think I will get a little feeling of accomplishment from working on the Blaze pile at all. Although I was just remembered that I would like to read Wondrous Strange as soon as possible so I will have to rush through this.

There are times when I become very aware that I don't have feelings or passions anymore, with the exception of reading which is more of a desperation. I desperately want to have some guiding inclination. Something that makes me feel like something other than a shell. I haven't cried since I was in the hospital. I just have no sense of poignancy at all. I want something to matter rather than all these silly obsessive/compulsive rituals. I don't even know where they are rooted in. Dr. Moore says it's anxiety, but most days I can't even work up to anxiety. My prevailing feelings are ones of tiredness and energy. But I want to feel like things have weight. Like I love things. Like I have love for things in this world beyond books and a hand bag. Don't get me wrong, my hand bag rocks but it's a limit to my adoration for the world, whereas I want a limitless feeling. I want to touch the world again and not feel as if it is a lifetime away. I think it's why I am so attached to Twilight because I feel so strongly about it. I love it and it almost feels real.

My grandmother died September 9, 1996 and her grave set unmarked by more than an angel ceramic for a long time. Last summer my mom bought the marker and I was so relieved that she finally had a stone that I asked for photo proof. It took a while for my mom to send the pic but she did and I love it. It's weird because I have strong feelings and I don't want to be buried but my grandmother was and my grandfather wants to be cremated. I wonder how they will rest being apart. Which is silly. I don't believe in an after life so that is just a ludicrous thought. It just bothers me that they won't lie together. They seemed inseperable until she died. Death is so weird. I fear it like nothing else. It's like a spector hanging over me. I don't want to be apart from D and it looms like darkness which I won't be able to escape. It gives me chills.

On to happier thoughts. In KMM's Fever series Rocky O'Bannion drives a Maybach, which I have come to learn is simply a gorgeous, insanely expensive car. It has reclining back seats and a rear refrigerator. It is the height of German luxury car production. It's not the fastest car though. It accelerates from 0-60 in 5.4 seconds so the Bugatti would win hands down in a race but the Maybach is still beautiful.

I wanted to go and see Possession this week but it proves difficult as it's not being shown anywhere in LA. I am going out on a limb here and saying it's being released maybe next week and Fandango has the wrong date or something to that effect. Either way, I'm not seeing it this week and I will have to wait until it is out to see it in LA. I asked D to take me to see Twilight. I don't know if he will or not. We will see.  

Is it Tuesday already? Time is passing so very quickly. Maybe this bodes well for all the books coming out that seem so far away right now. I did meet with Jamie on Sunday at Kamal Palace in LB. I should have had D get a picture of us together. I didn't think of it at the time. I wouldn't mind seeing more of her. It's nice that she drives now. Maybe we can go for sushi after she and D get off work one of these days. A Monday maybe.

I had therapy yesterday and we talked about something that I am starting to feel terribly bad about and it's not very funny although for a while I was laughing about it. Dr. Moore made me realize how wrong I was to share the thought and now I just don't know how to take off the table. I think I'm going to avoid it and see if it won't go away. She'd be really proud of me taking that route too. Damn, what a mess.

I finally got my big Christmas present hung and displayed in my bedroom. I like it very much. D done good. I love my poster. My only wish is that I had had one of the 11.21.08 posters too. I would have put them right next to one another. But that is probably a greedy thought. I love what I have. Thank you Puppy.

So I was up all night reading Rachel Caine. I finished Lord of Misrule and found the first three chapters of Carpe Corpus on her website. I liked many many many things about Misrule. I did think it needed more Shane but I would probably think that regardless of how many pages he graced. It was strange that the entire books spans about 3 days. It feels like it should be many more. A lot happens. And just when I start grumbling that it seems she will never turn 17, I see that her birthday is the first day of the next book. So it then staggers me to realize that months pass between Misrule and Corpus. My favorite character out of Misrule isn't Shane, it is Myrnin who has some of the best lines in the entire book. My least favorite part of the book is the ending. I would really like to have them have a week solid of peace. And there are 5 more Morganville books. I can't even fathom the sexual tension between Shane and Claire in book 10. Unless she starts writing cut scenes. Come on cut scenes. Shane deserves some nookie.

The book I'm going to be starting soon is Sunshine by Robin McKinely. D spotted it at the bookstore because of the cover. When he read the backcover he knew I would be into it because there are vampires. So we will see what it's like. Although I haven't read any of it today. I slept late and then have been playing on the KMM message board. I always feel like a twit on message boards. But I have been sporting my love for Barrons and explaining how I think making Jericho be a vampire or a werewolf would be so mundane and wrong. I hope the story doesn't take that road. Some girl suggested that he will be something unique and I hope she is right. Something unique and powerful. Hello, is it August 25 yet? Only 230 days. I think that it was longer when I started counting down Twilight. See not long at all.... and the wait until City of Glass? Just 76 days. I can't wait. I'm vibrating with anticipation. 

This week Possession comes out. It has Lee Pace and Sarah Michelle Gellar and I'm really looking forward to it. I love me some Lee Pace, although he forgives me for not watching Pushing Daisies this year. I don't know where it is opening yet but I think the boy will be taking me to see it. I would also like to go and see Twilight sometime this weekend. It would make easy if we could movie hop but Twilight isn't up in a lot of different places anymore. So we will just have to wait and see.

Thursday night D and I are going to the Staples Center to see the Ducks play the Kings. Go Anze and Raitis. I would like to be able to stay up the entire game. We'll have to try it out as a new thing. There is just something embarassing about falling asleep at a sporting event. A year ago I would have been all for the Ducks but then they traded Andy. I have man-loyality. And Teemu and Beauchmin aren't playing. It leaves little to be excited about. Hell, they don't even have Bertuzzi for me to be excited about someone hitting. But it will be a good game. We will have fun.