3 posts tagged “possession”

Thursday night D and I went to see the Kings play the Ducks at the Staples Center. For once I routed for the Kings. I got to cheer when Kopi scored and everything. It was enlightening. Although I have to admit I fell in love a little with a Duck named Bobby Ryan-- who scored a hat trick that night. Lovely hands, exceptional feet--he's the complete package. If D hadn't picked him up for his team, I'd have taken him for mine. I don't like watching the Ducks but I will happily do so to see him. Exceptional! As for Kopi, I get to see him again on Monday.

I finished Sunshine today. I really loved Constantine but I'm not sure that I loved the end of his story. As for Sunshine. She was the equivalent of dry bread for the majority of the book. All she talked about was cinnamon rolls and baking and it got old realy quickly. I did love that it changed her towards the end but it was a little too late for me.Spoiler: I didn't like that she was on the fence about Con for so fucking long. I would have liked if she had slept with him and then dealt with it. Still despite me not liking the writing style which was dispersed with tangents and notes, I don't think I will mooch the book. At some point I may feel the need to read it again-- while skimming heavily the points with the SOF and Mel, whom I didn't like for the sake of him being in the way of the story I wanted to read. I still think that story is there. Spoiler: You don't end the book with them not being able to be apart from one another if you don't expect to go to that place. I give the book 3 out of 5 stars for the style but a 4 for the story itself. But don't believe any of the accolades on the back of the book... they don't really apply. There isn't romance in the book really at all, and fans of Buffy will just be confused.

I started a Blaze book today. I haven't read any in weeks and I figured it would be good to recalibrate with something of normal contemporary romance. Of course what I piced is a time travel story, but, hey. I think I will get a little feeling of accomplishment from working on the Blaze pile at all. Although I was just remembered that I would like to read Wondrous Strange as soon as possible so I will have to rush through this.

There are times when I become very aware that I don't have feelings or passions anymore, with the exception of reading which is more of a desperation. I desperately want to have some guiding inclination. Something that makes me feel like something other than a shell. I haven't cried since I was in the hospital. I just have no sense of poignancy at all. I want something to matter rather than all these silly obsessive/compulsive rituals. I don't even know where they are rooted in. Dr. Moore says it's anxiety, but most days I can't even work up to anxiety. My prevailing feelings are ones of tiredness and energy. But I want to feel like things have weight. Like I love things. Like I have love for things in this world beyond books and a hand bag. Don't get me wrong, my hand bag rocks but it's a limit to my adoration for the world, whereas I want a limitless feeling. I want to touch the world again and not feel as if it is a lifetime away. I think it's why I am so attached to Twilight because I feel so strongly about it. I love it and it almost feels real.

My grandmother died September 9, 1996 and her grave set unmarked by more than an angel ceramic for a long time. Last summer my mom bought the marker and I was so relieved that she finally had a stone that I asked for photo proof. It took a while for my mom to send the pic but she did and I love it. It's weird because I have strong feelings and I don't want to be buried but my grandmother was and my grandfather wants to be cremated. I wonder how they will rest being apart. Which is silly. I don't believe in an after life so that is just a ludicrous thought. It just bothers me that they won't lie together. They seemed inseperable until she died. Death is so weird. I fear it like nothing else. It's like a spector hanging over me. I don't want to be apart from D and it looms like darkness which I won't be able to escape. It gives me chills.

On to happier thoughts. In KMM's Fever series Rocky O'Bannion drives a Maybach, which I have come to learn is simply a gorgeous, insanely expensive car. It has reclining back seats and a rear refrigerator. It is the height of German luxury car production. It's not the fastest car though. It accelerates from 0-60 in 5.4 seconds so the Bugatti would win hands down in a race but the Maybach is still beautiful.

I wanted to go and see Possession this week but it proves difficult as it's not being shown anywhere in LA. I am going out on a limb here and saying it's being released maybe next week and Fandango has the wrong date or something to that effect. Either way, I'm not seeing it this week and I will have to wait until it is out to see it in LA. I asked D to take me to see Twilight. I don't know if he will or not. We will see.  

Is it Tuesday already? Time is passing so very quickly. Maybe this bodes well for all the books coming out that seem so far away right now. I did meet with Jamie on Sunday at Kamal Palace in LB. I should have had D get a picture of us together. I didn't think of it at the time. I wouldn't mind seeing more of her. It's nice that she drives now. Maybe we can go for sushi after she and D get off work one of these days. A Monday maybe.

I had therapy yesterday and we talked about something that I am starting to feel terribly bad about and it's not very funny although for a while I was laughing about it. Dr. Moore made me realize how wrong I was to share the thought and now I just don't know how to take off the table. I think I'm going to avoid it and see if it won't go away. She'd be really proud of me taking that route too. Damn, what a mess.

I finally got my big Christmas present hung and displayed in my bedroom. I like it very much. D done good. I love my poster. My only wish is that I had had one of the 11.21.08 posters too. I would have put them right next to one another. But that is probably a greedy thought. I love what I have. Thank you Puppy.

So I was up all night reading Rachel Caine. I finished Lord of Misrule and found the first three chapters of Carpe Corpus on her website. I liked many many many things about Misrule. I did think it needed more Shane but I would probably think that regardless of how many pages he graced. It was strange that the entire books spans about 3 days. It feels like it should be many more. A lot happens. And just when I start grumbling that it seems she will never turn 17, I see that her birthday is the first day of the next book. So it then staggers me to realize that months pass between Misrule and Corpus. My favorite character out of Misrule isn't Shane, it is Myrnin who has some of the best lines in the entire book. My least favorite part of the book is the ending. I would really like to have them have a week solid of peace. And there are 5 more Morganville books. I can't even fathom the sexual tension between Shane and Claire in book 10. Unless she starts writing cut scenes. Come on cut scenes. Shane deserves some nookie.

The book I'm going to be starting soon is Sunshine by Robin McKinely. D spotted it at the bookstore because of the cover. When he read the backcover he knew I would be into it because there are vampires. So we will see what it's like. Although I haven't read any of it today. I slept late and then have been playing on the KMM message board. I always feel like a twit on message boards. But I have been sporting my love for Barrons and explaining how I think making Jericho be a vampire or a werewolf would be so mundane and wrong. I hope the story doesn't take that road. Some girl suggested that he will be something unique and I hope she is right. Something unique and powerful. Hello, is it August 25 yet? Only 230 days. I think that it was longer when I started counting down Twilight. See not long at all.... and the wait until City of Glass? Just 76 days. I can't wait. I'm vibrating with anticipation. 

This week Possession comes out. It has Lee Pace and Sarah Michelle Gellar and I'm really looking forward to it. I love me some Lee Pace, although he forgives me for not watching Pushing Daisies this year. I don't know where it is opening yet but I think the boy will be taking me to see it. I would also like to go and see Twilight sometime this weekend. It would make easy if we could movie hop but Twilight isn't up in a lot of different places anymore. So we will just have to wait and see.

Thursday night D and I are going to the Staples Center to see the Ducks play the Kings. Go Anze and Raitis. I would like to be able to stay up the entire game. We'll have to try it out as a new thing. There is just something embarassing about falling asleep at a sporting event. A year ago I would have been all for the Ducks but then they traded Andy. I have man-loyality. And Teemu and Beauchmin aren't playing. It leaves little to be excited about. Hell, they don't even have Bertuzzi for me to be excited about someone hitting. But it will be a good game. We will have fun.

The Fall was even better the second time. David and I went to see it with Susan and Belle this afternoon and it was as good, in my opinion, as it was the first time. I got to look more at the locations and the scenes. I wish I could find screen caps of this film. There are too many places where I want to expound on the camera angles or the composition. It's such a lovely movie.

And then there is Lee Pace. I loved him in Wonderfalls. He was awesome playing off of Caroline Dhavernas. And I think he is brilliant in Pushing Daisies. I was really disappointed in the shortened season because of the strike. It's wonderful to have him star in a movie. I'm having mixed feelings about Possession because I don't watch scary movies. I missed Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day, I'll have to Netflix it.

Speaking about movies David and I are watching Can't Hardly Wait and it is such a six degrees of separation film. Lauren Ambrose gets licked by Eric Balfour who plays her boyfriend in Six Feet Under. Seth Green hits on Paige Moss who plays Veruca in Buffy. Also Amber Benson is in one of the kitchen scene intrigued by a banana. Of course those two are connected via Willow in Buffy. One of the guys that hits on Amanda after her big confrontation with Mike is Owen from Never Kill a Boy on the First Date from Buffy Season 1. And then there is Ethan Embry, I can't connect him with anyone else but he is in Empire Records which I love. And while I'm mentioning connections and nonconnections, I must mention Mike Dexter, aka Peter Facinelli, the man who plays Carlisle Cullen. This movie is awesome. Oh! and I just noticed Jason Segel too.


Speaking of celebrities, I had a badger moment at Mann Chinese 6 in Hollywood. David saw Robert LaSardo a little over a week ago in Santa Monica and today he was in Hollywood. He's smaller than he looks on TV. His tattoos are really dark and he is just covered all over his torso and arms. He's a bit menacing but so small that it takes away the edge. I was very happy to see someone. I rarely do. Woohoo for a Nip/Tuck spotting though.

Today has been a good day. I plan to read more in Sebastian after the movie. I might try to get some emails done. Just try to keep today mellow.