7 posts tagged “me”

I made sure to go home for the 4th of July because my family has always done the 4th together. I don't really feel like they do much else together but this is like a special time. I almost feel like I am a part of a family then and that is something since all the rest of the time I feel quite removed from them. We went to a ball game to have it be rained out and then diverted to Roamingwood. It was a tiny private lake in the Hideout. I was reintroduced to mosquitoes there. Incase you were wondering there aren't any in Miracle Mile. It was a pretty show. That night in the world of WoW we downed Maly for the first time. Woot woot!

Philadelphia is a 2 hour drive on the turnpike and my sister has never really been so David and I packed her in (and I promptly fell asleep because I could not do EST hours) and took her to her first trip to Philly. Baby lemurs awaited us.
So that was my trip home. Three days isn't much. I miss my sister dearly, even if she is a mercenary--out to get anything she can get me to buy for her. I would like to go home again soon, but there is DC in November and Olympics in February. Not to mention that I want out of this place and that requires first and last months rent and moving expenses. I have dreams of dishwashers and washer and dryers.

So to do a quick catch up... I play WoW still... A LOT!!!! Most days for atleast 12 hours. We have up to the General done in 10 man Ulduar, Lord Jarraxus in 10 and 25 man ToC.... No 25 man Maly:(. We have Kolo downed in 25 Uld but no IC and Auriaya handed us our asses last night. Mand and I started new toons. Two Draeni, a hunter and shaman. I like the shaman but it isn't Ali and I don't think I want to give up on Ali. I bought a mount on ebay the other day... it hasn't arrived yet. I hope the guy wasn't a fraud because it was expensive. I promised Mand that I would ride it instead of my kitty. I won't disappoint him.:)

This last past weekend was a hard one for us, the vet gave us the news that Nicky's test results came back that he was worse and that we would have to make some hard decisions. We brought him home to spend some time with him before we had to do the unthinkable. He was listless and so unsteady on his legs. He had little appetite and seemed to want to be doing things but lack the energy to do so. Thursday we bought a new kitty tree and Nicky sat on it once, all the other kitties avoided it but Friday he seemed to struggle to so much as hold his head up. Then he would cry. It killed me. Saturday we just kept him comfortable. We gave him his medicine and IV and I wanted a picture with him.... I'm so selfish. We got the picture but he started crying in pain and we laid him down and decided that he would be better off being put to sleep. We drove out to the critical care hospital and had a few last minutes with him.... I miss the stupid pain in the ass cat so much. I will never forget going out to get the mail in Chico and finding him. Or how he would attack your ankles. How Kai Kai hated him at first, although in the end they were best pals. The pizza, grapes and doritos he would eat. The christmas tree he over turned after it took us like 20 minutes to decorate it. The car ride down from Chico when all he did was bellow. Playing stairs with him in Long Beach. His reaction to Frankie... it wasn't good. Him being on a leash in the hall in Long Beach and the kid coming running and him bolting out of it. He always loved being outside. All the Skipbo games he sat down on the board of, stopping playing. I will never clean the windows and I will leave his nose prints for ever. Waking up with him on top of me after years of him treating me like I was a lowly girl. The way he would wait for David to get out of the shower and then climb all over him. I could never replace him and the paw prints they gave us at the vet hospital aren't nearly enough.

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It is so stupid that the video on my Iphone works portrait style and you can't view it here that way but I will let it stay. Turn your head to look at it.

I have been up for 2 hours and I am soooooo lazy. I did play with the kitties and take pictures of them for this post but I feel so completely at loose ends. Haha... it took me those 2 hours to prepare to write this which should come about organically. Next I will be practicing to shower. 

Things on the home front are quiet. Nothing is going not that is a big deal aside from me cycling, but we have a new med dosage for that. I am looking forward to having D home for the long weekend. I feel like we haven't had time together in a really long time. Nicky is doing better. He is eating 6 or 7 times a day. We started him out on that TessBrianna suggested and from there he just dug in. I still don't see him putting on weight though. He is painfully thin and when I have to hold him down for his IV I worry that I am going to hurt him. But he is getting stronger and he fights fiercely. I don't blame him. I wouldn't want IVs in my back either. In other news we are going to take Deami to the farm this weekend I think. I feel so horrible but he is really not a social cat. He has so many attitude problems. I can wait for years and it won't change. I don't know what to say to Mr. Martin. I will have to tell him the truth but I'm not looking forward to it.

D just told me that I won't be able to get to Comic Con this year.:( Here is where I whine. I never want to go anywhere and the few places I want to go never work out and I am so sick of it. I get dragged to all these bullshit places I never want to go to and I hardly complain at all and then the 2 or 3 places I want to go don't work. Like TBS is in Anaheim on the 6/3 and I won't be able to go because of traffic. It fucking sucks. /end whinge, sorry for the tantrum.

WoW has been fun. I got a sea turtle mount the other day. I love it but it's not a traveling mount really. Well not on land. It is good in the water. I have been working on 50 pets and now I've decided I want 50 mounts too. I'm at a pitiful 12 right now. I'm at 42/50 pets though... that is something. D says I need money to get mounts and it just bums me out some because it makes me realize that I have questing that I can do now but soon it will be nothing but instances and lets face it... that isn't going to bring in all that much. I am going to have my income slow down. I don't know what to think. I do need to do more instances though. I have been doing runs with Mandarb (D), Annäbell, Laureena and Mclaren. I love Mclaren. Next to Anya he is my favorite person in the game. Of course he doesn't know that and it is best that way... I think he would be freaked right out and hide.

I read two trashy romances this week. It's nice to read. I miss it. I have been picking romances because they don't require a whole lot of work or thinking. I have Fragile Eternity here and I am thinking I am going to start it on Tuesday. It's a lot thicker than Wicked Lovely and Ink Exchange. Interesting. I can't wait to get back to Seth and Aislinn. I still haven't finished The Vampire Diaries; The Return/Nightfall. I was a little turned off with the direction it was going and I hate Bonnie and so much of the book is from her perspective. Why not Stefan... it is called the VAMPIRE DIARIES. I also noticed on my calendar that Carpe Corpus comes out in two weeks!! New Morganville Vampires. Oh Shane I hope you don't spend the entire book in jail with your dad. I am happy and unsure about where Rachel Caine will go with Morganvile in the next few books. I liked it when Amelie was the unknown evil. I don't like the Bishop story line. I really hope it ends with this book. I also hope that Shane and Claire get a little make out action... she is 17 now. Shane always impied that 17 was the dividing line. Oh Shane... Shane, Shane, Shane.

So I think I want to make some wishes and mayne anyone who reads this could combine their good thoughts and help make my wishes come true, I wish I could go to Comic Con for Thursday and see the New Moon Panel. I wish I could get BlizzCon tickets. I wish that Anya gets WotLK soon so she could hang out with us in Dal. I wish Mand gets a chance to do what he really wants to do. I wish T would come back because I need a break from being in charge. And I wish that I could do more things by myself so that Mand could raid and I could do more than sit and twiddle my thumbs.

Oh and this,,,

Yesterday I had my birthday party at Susan's and it was so awesome. Susan and Belle had gotten festive and there were flowers for me and sushi and snapple. It was perfect. Connie and Aaron came and so did Crystal. Susan got Art to show. I felt so... I guess the word is blessed. I did try drinking and it started out promising and then I tanked in the end but it was fun while I was feeling warm and fuzzy. We played this card game and I didn't win at all, but that was okay. I'm not too competitive. The Belle and I went down to the pool and soaked our feet. I was a little stupid at the point but I don't think I said anything I want to die for.

Between D's birthday and mine I just feel like I don't see enough of my friends. I never see Crystal or Mario. It's been almost two years since I saw Sonia. And It's been a year since I saw Sasha. I feel like I am so removed from my friends. Alienated. But I'd really like to do something about that. I am going to call Sasha until she goes out to lunch with me. And as for Sonia. I might just get Mario to come up and go visit with me. I'm going to try to not be such an isolationist. Fewer books and more dates.

Today was a really lazy day. I spent the afternoon watching hockey and then my men, Taylor Kitsch and Chace Crawford in the Covenant. I will not defend that movie to anyone. It's so bad it's good in my opinion and anything that gets Taylor Kitsch in small swim shorts gets my endorsement. D let me download the soundtrack too. I really like the scores. After watching the Covenant I had to watch last weeks and this weeks True Blood. I love Jason and Lafayette. They make the show for me. Although I have to admit that the show isn't really holding my attention like I wish it would. I'd rather watch the Covenant.

I finished reading Poison Study by Maria V. Snyder and it was okay. I put a hold on Magic Study. I'll read that as soon as I get it though I have to talk to Belle first. If Valek isn't in the next book than I more than likely don't care to read it. He's essential. For now I still have to read The Kitchen God's Wife and this week I chose Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde. Something small so I can get it done and dedicate time to reading last week's 20 in 20. Why can't it be City of Bones?

Yesterday D and I had to wait at the car wash for the car to be done and he snapped a picture of me that I didn't totally hate. You can see the new color in it. Although no one has noticed that I have gone from being a red head to having black hair. Oh well, you can only try and everything is up to outside forces.

So today has been mad interesting. I don't talk often about my family on here and it's because it is just not a situation I like to advertise. I love my family but they are frustrating and they make me wonder how I have survived them this long. I'm not talking about the family I have with D but rather where I came from. My roots, if you will.

Today I called home and talked to my mom for a while and she didn't do the thing she usually does to me where she doesn't listen to a thing I say and then starts conversations about random trivially shit that just drives me crazy. We actually had a conversation. It was really nice. But then I talked to my sister and that changed everything.

My sister is 12 and she is rather tight-lipped. She isn't a big communicator. I don't think she understands much of how she feels about anything or what makes any of those feelings come to life. I love her more than anything and I want really desperately for her life to be something. I asked her today if she was happy and she told me that no, she's not happy at all. She didn't know how to change it and my suggestion of reading and journaling was met with disagreement. Apparently the kid hates to read. (I don't know how we can be related if that is true.) I remember how lonely it is to grow up where she is. We live in a pretty unpopulated area. I say 'we' like I still live there. The place is just really empty and she spends almost all her time with adults, much like I did. It's just short of hell for a young person and I just don't have any answers for her. I would buy or give her anything she wanted to make it better but not even she knows what that might be. It all frustrates and saddens me. She has at least 6 more years of this and she doesn't have the escape of books to make it bearable. I don't know what to do.

On to other less depressing things. I changed my banner again. I love the picture here and I also made a iPhone desktop of it too. So now I hope to see the picture everywhere I look and maybe I can make myself sick of it.

Speaking of pictures, there is a new movie still out today. I only have eyes for the running Edward, so I never noticed the running Rosalie in the background. D had to point it out to me. I don't mind getting these small tastes and bites of Twilight. It makes me all the more hungry for the movie. There is a rumor that there is another trailer to be released tomorrow night on Entertainment Tonight. I can't wait for someone to upload it so I can post it on here.

As for tomorrow night... I will be attending the Red Carpet Premiere of Step Brothers in Westwood with D, Susan and Belle. We got the passes while in line at the So You Think You Can Dance taping last Thursday. The movie trailer tickles me something awful so I am really looking forward to it.