6 posts tagged “karen marie moning”
Thursday night D and I went to see the Kings play the Ducks at the Staples Center. For once I routed for the Kings. I got to cheer when Kopi scored and everything. It was enlightening. Although I have to admit I fell in love a little with a Duck named Bobby Ryan-- who scored a hat trick that night. Lovely hands, exceptional feet--he's the complete package. If D hadn't picked him up for his team, I'd have taken him for mine. I don't like watching the Ducks but I will happily do so to see him. Exceptional! As for Kopi, I get to see him again on Monday.
I finished Sunshine today. I really loved Constantine but I'm not sure that I loved the end of his story. As for Sunshine. She was the equivalent of dry bread for the majority of the book. All she talked about was cinnamon rolls and baking and it got old realy quickly. I did love that it changed her towards the end but it was a little too late for me.Spoiler: I didn't like that she was on the fence about Con for so fucking long. I would have liked if she had slept with him and then dealt with it. Still despite me not liking the writing style which was dispersed with tangents and notes, I don't think I will mooch the book. At some point I may feel the need to read it again-- while skimming heavily the points with the SOF and Mel, whom I didn't like for the sake of him being in the way of the story I wanted to read. I still think that story is there. Spoiler: You don't end the book with them not being able to be apart from one another if you don't
expect to go to that place. I give the book 3 out of 5 stars for the style but a 4 for the story itself. But don't believe any of the accolades on the back of the book... they don't really apply. There isn't romance in the book really at all, and fans of Buffy will just be confused.
I started a Blaze book today. I haven't read any in weeks and I figured it would be good to recalibrate with something of normal contemporary romance. Of course what I piced is a time travel story, but, hey. I think I will get a little feeling of accomplishment from working on the Blaze pile at all. Although I was just remembered that I would like to read Wondrous Strange as soon as possible so I will have to rush through this.
There are times when I become very aware that I don't have feelings or passions anymore, with the exception of reading which is more of a desperation. I desperately want to have some guiding inclination. Something that makes me feel like something other than a shell. I haven't cried since I was in the hospital. I just have no sense of poignancy at all. I want something to matter rather than all these silly obsessive/compulsive rituals. I don't even know where they are rooted in. Dr. Moore says it's anxiety, but most days I can't even work up to anxiety. My prevailing feelings are ones of tiredness and energy. But I want to feel like things have weight. Like I love things. Like I have love for things in this world beyond books and a hand bag. Don't get me wrong, my hand bag rocks but it's a limit to my adoration for the world, whereas I want a limitless feeling. I want to touch the world again and not feel as if it is a lifetime away. I think it's why I am so attached to Twilight because I feel so strongly about it. I love it and it almost feels real.
My grandmother died September 9, 1996 and her grave set unmarked by more than an angel ceramic for a long time. Last summer my mom bought the marker and I was so relieved that she finally had a stone that I asked for photo proof. It took a while for my mom to send the pic but she did and I love it. It's weird because I have strong feelings and I don't want to be buried but my grandmother was and my grandfather wants to be cremated. I wonder how they will rest being apart. Which is silly. I don't believe in an after life so that is just a ludicrous thought. It just bothers me that they won't lie together. They seemed inseperable until she died. Death is so weird. I fear it like nothing else. It's like a spector hanging over me. I don't want to be apart from D and it looms like darkness which I won't be able to escape. It gives me chills.
On to happier thoughts. In KMM's Fever series Rocky O'Bannion drives a Maybach, which I have come to learn is simply a gorgeous, insanely expensive car. It has reclining back seats and a rear refrigerator. It is the height of German luxury car production. It's not the fastest car though. It accelerates from 0-60 in 5.4 seconds so the Bugatti would win hands down in a race but the Maybach is still beautiful.
I wanted to go and see Possession this week but it proves difficult as it's not being shown anywhere in LA. I am going out on a limb here and saying it's being released maybe next week and Fandango has the wrong date or something to that effect. Either way, I'm not seeing it this week and I will have to wait until it is out to see it in LA. I asked D to take me to see Twilight. I don't know if he will or not. We will see.
I started a Blaze book today. I haven't read any in weeks and I figured it would be good to recalibrate with something of normal contemporary romance. Of course what I piced is a time travel story, but, hey. I think I will get a little feeling of accomplishment from working on the Blaze pile at all. Although I was just remembered that I would like to read Wondrous Strange as soon as possible so I will have to rush through this.
There are times when I become very aware that I don't have feelings or passions anymore, with the exception of reading which is more of a desperation. I desperately want to have some guiding inclination. Something that makes me feel like something other than a shell. I haven't cried since I was in the hospital. I just have no sense of poignancy at all. I want something to matter rather than all these silly obsessive/compulsive rituals. I don't even know where they are rooted in. Dr. Moore says it's anxiety, but most days I can't even work up to anxiety. My prevailing feelings are ones of tiredness and energy. But I want to feel like things have weight. Like I love things. Like I have love for things in this world beyond books and a hand bag. Don't get me wrong, my hand bag rocks but it's a limit to my adoration for the world, whereas I want a limitless feeling. I want to touch the world again and not feel as if it is a lifetime away. I think it's why I am so attached to Twilight because I feel so strongly about it. I love it and it almost feels real.
Is it Tuesday already? Time is passing so very quickly. Maybe this bodes well for all the books coming out that seem so far away right now. I did meet with Jamie on Sunday at Kamal Palace in LB. I should have had D get a picture of us together. I didn't think of it at the time. I wouldn't mind seeing more of her. It's nice that she drives now. Maybe we can go for sushi after she and D get off work one of these days. A Monday maybe.
I had therapy yesterday and we talked about something that I am starting to feel terribly bad about and it's not very funny although for a while I was laughing about it. Dr. Moore made me realize how wrong I was to share the thought and now I just don't know how to take off the table. I think I'm going to avoid it and see if it won't go away. She'd be really proud of me taking that route too. Damn, what a mess.
I finally got my big Christmas present hung and displayed in my bedroom. I like it very much. D done good. I love my poster. My only wish is that I had had one of the 11.21.08 posters too. I would have put them right next to one another. But that is probably a greedy thought. I love what I have. Thank you Puppy.
So I was up all night reading Rachel Caine. I finished Lord of Misrule and found the first three chapters of Carpe Corpus on her website. I liked many many many things about Misrule. I did think it needed more Shane but I would probably think that regardless of how many pages he graced. It was strange that the entire books spans about 3 days. It feels like it should be many more. A lot happens. And just when I start grumbling that it seems she will never turn 17, I see that her birthday is the first day of the next book. So it then staggers me to realize that months pass between Misrule and Corpus. My favorite character out of Misrule isn't Shane, it is Myrnin who has some of the best lines in the entire book. My least favorite part of the book is the ending. I would really like to have them have a week solid of peace. And there are 5 more Morganville books. I can't even fathom the sexual tension between Shane and Claire in book 10. Unless she starts writing cut scenes. Come on cut scenes. Shane deserves some nookie.
The book I'm going to be starting soon is Sunshine by Robin McKinely. D spotted it at the bookstore because of the cover. When he read the backcover he knew I would be into it because there are vampires. So we will see what it's like. Although I haven't read any of it today. I slept late and then have been playing on the KMM message board. I always feel like a twit on message boards. But I have been sporting my love for Barrons and explaining how I think making Jericho be a vampire or a werewolf would be so mundane and wrong. I hope the story doesn't take that road. Some girl suggested that he will be something unique and I hope she is right. Something unique and powerful. Hello, is it August 25 yet? Only 230 days. I think that it was longer when I started counting down Twilight. See not long at all.... and the wait until City of Glass? Just 76 days. I can't wait. I'm vibrating with anticipation.
This week Possession comes out. It has Lee Pace and Sarah Michelle Gellar and I'm really looking forward to it. I love me some Lee Pace, although he forgives me for not watching Pushing Daisies this year. I don't know where it is opening yet but I think the boy will be taking me to see it. I would also like to go and see Twilight sometime this weekend. It would make easy if we could movie hop but Twilight isn't up in a lot of different places anymore. So we will just have to wait and see.
Thursday night D and I are going to the Staples Center to see the Ducks play the Kings. Go Anze and Raitis. I would like to be able to stay up the entire game. We'll have to try it out as a new thing. There is just something embarassing about falling asleep at a sporting event. A year ago I would have been all for the Ducks but then they traded Andy. I have man-loyality. And Teemu and Beauchmin aren't playing. It leaves little to be excited about. Hell, they don't even have Bertuzzi for me to be excited about someone hitting. But it will be a good game. We will have fun.
I had therapy yesterday and we talked about something that I am starting to feel terribly bad about and it's not very funny although for a while I was laughing about it. Dr. Moore made me realize how wrong I was to share the thought and now I just don't know how to take off the table. I think I'm going to avoid it and see if it won't go away. She'd be really proud of me taking that route too. Damn, what a mess.
Thursday night D and I are going to the Staples Center to see the Ducks play the Kings. Go Anze and Raitis. I would like to be able to stay up the entire game. We'll have to try it out as a new thing. There is just something embarassing about falling asleep at a sporting event. A year ago I would have been all for the Ducks but then they traded Andy. I have man-loyality. And Teemu and Beauchmin aren't playing. It leaves little to be excited about. Hell, they don't even have Bertuzzi for me to be excited about someone hitting. But it will be a good game. We will have fun.
Yesterday was a day full of surprises. I wore my green sweater with my green converse. They aren't grass green, more of a gem colour and it looked really good. It isn't often that I like what I wear. So it was a good start. I went to the bookstore to get Faefever and found Lord of Misrule was out on the shelves early. I whooped and jumped up and down. I have little self respect when it comes to books. I haven't started it yet but I plan to start it today. Oh where for art thou, Shane? I went to a hockey game. Kings vs. Flyers at the Staples Center. I found myself routing for the Flyers... and that is just not acceptable. I have never liked Philadelphia. Even when Mclaughlin was making me watch every game. But I do like Braydon Coburn and D has Scott Hartnell on his fantasy hockey team. It was a hard hitting game. I imagine they will be feeling it today. Although the Kings won in the end, I didn't see it because I fell asleep on D's shoulder and we left early. Hopefully I'll have a better time of it this Thursday when we go to see the Ducks play. I can route for the Kings that game. I never have gotten over them trading Andy McDonald.
And as is if yesterday wasn't good enough I found that when I turned on
the images in my KMM newsletter that it had a pic of the cover of
Dreamfever! I can't wait for it. I found all the books in hardcover so
I can have a nice set of them. I'll have to re read the set once I get
them. And it's not long now until the end of March and City of Glass. I'm listening to City of Ashes at the gym and it just keeps those fires burning. I
think that it is just what's newer in my mind but I want Dreamfever much more. It could be that horrible end where the world is folding in on itself and Barrons isn't there to save her. I'd die for him is a terrible way to end a book about surviving. Back to City of Glass... Cassandra Clare had a contest for ARCs of the book and one person made Magic Cards with the characters on them and they were so neat. Of course my favorite is Jace Wayland. Then I loke the Alec Lightwood one. I wish these actually existed.
I'm of half the mind to watch some TV today. This is highly unusual. I have the gym today so anything I would want to watch gets cut into by that. And then we are going to go and meet Jamie in LBC for some Indian. By then this idea will have burned off. Tomorrow I'm meeting Nicky online at 11:30 so it is out then too. Then I have Dr. Moore. I have plans to read Lord of Misrule sometime in the next 24 hours too so that leaves me really short on time. But I have Sinchornicity, which D found for me and Lost in Austen. D is going to have Hex come through on Netflix this week. I will have to readjust my mental thinking to work on this.
New Years Resolutions!!
I made a few... alright more than a couple. I was generous with my resolve and not doing so great on a few of them. But I will list them here so that I can look back and know which ones I need to work on.
On one of the feeds I have someone capped the Twilight movie and unfortunately they didn't have the end credits. I badly want the bite that is in black and white at the end of the movie. There is a bit of DVD release info around the internet on how there will be a regular, special and Blu-Ray edition. I will want one that I can see all the extras with. I can't wait until New Moon goes into production. Also in March. A lot will be going do in the month of March.
I'm of half the mind to watch some TV today. This is highly unusual. I have the gym today so anything I would want to watch gets cut into by that. And then we are going to go and meet Jamie in LBC for some Indian. By then this idea will have burned off. Tomorrow I'm meeting Nicky online at 11:30 so it is out then too. Then I have Dr. Moore. I have plans to read Lord of Misrule sometime in the next 24 hours too so that leaves me really short on time. But I have Sinchornicity, which D found for me and Lost in Austen. D is going to have Hex come through on Netflix this week. I will have to readjust my mental thinking to work on this.
New Years Resolutions!!
I made a few... alright more than a couple. I was generous with my resolve and not doing so great on a few of them. But I will list them here so that I can look back and know which ones I need to work on.
- Go to the gym three times a week. 3 hours cardio and 1.5 weight training.
- Lose 15 lbs and keep it of.
- Be more mindful of my hygiene.
- Do something social each week.
- Read 5 books a week.
- Walk more.
- Clean the house one a month.
- Keep on top of the kitty litter.
- To let my hair grow. No cutting it.
Last night D and I went to see the Sharks play the Kings at the Staples Center and it was not the best game I've ever seen but it was a good game. The Sharks played really sloppy hockey. The Kings were desperate as usual. In the end the Sharks won in a shoot out. I spent a lot of the night watching Dan Boyle and I was really impressed by his skill. He has really nice hands. I'm interested in watching Shark games with D now. I would also like to plan a 3 day trip to San Jose so we could see the Sharks in the Shark tank. D would be so excited.
The new Lords of Avalon comics are out. They are the Knights of Darkness story with Varian and Merewyn. It will be interesting to see how they depict Merewyn as a hag. When I read the story I really thought they should some how have Seren or Kerrigan interacting with Varian and Merewyn but they don't really until the end. It's a good book and the comic should follow suit. I think it's the same artist which is a bit of a disappointment but hey.
I'm so excited for Christmas. I love opening presents. And I like Christmas to be a big affair. My mom is sending two more boxes of presents. She gives me plenty of gifts to unwrap. I am done shopping for D. My secret santa gift is under control. I think the gift I am most excited about is something I got for D. Although he never read the gift I was most excited about last year. He better be excited this year. Oh and I am excited about what I got for Belle. She's going to love it.
I've been doing a lot of downloading lately and I hit pay dirt today when I found Ripe by Ben Lee, The Perishers's Let There Be Morning and Nightcrawler, Pete Yorn's newest album. I also got some HIM albums I don't have and I cleaned up my Metric collection. I downloaded a bunch more too. I am happy to have so much new music. Although right now I am listening to Stellastarr* and I've had this cd for about four years. So maybe new music is wasted on me.
New Moon has a release date 20 November 2009. I am getting excited about it. I hope Chris Weitz doesn't fuck it up.
I got the best news this week. Nielle is going to buy her ticket to come and visit in April. I am already racking my brain as to things we can do. Maybe the LACMA, or the Science Center. Maybe to the Salton Sea. Maybe I will make her cook for me. I'm sure she will want to watch hours of the food channel. We will have tons of fun.
Today suck. D is dying of some plague and has been in bed all day. I love him home but not when all he does is sleep. We are supposed to be going to a Sharks game tonight and I think maybe we should nix that idea and get him better.
Little Ashes finally got a release date for the states, March 27th. I am really excited about this film. It would be nice to see how Rob Pattinson does in an edgy role. Salvador Dali and his lover should turn off some of those teeny boppers who think Rob is just Edward Cullen. I hope it shows a lot of male on male french kissing. Brian Kenney used to do it and make me feel like I was watching the hottest thing going.
In only a few weeks BSG will be back and I am determined to be more excited about it now then I was last Spring. I am going to get in my girl Starbuck's corner and stay there. I don't care if she lead everyone to their deaths. I have seen some of the trailers for the upcoming season and it does look to be twisty-turny. There is one kiss that I caught between Lee and Kara. Please god, if you exist, make the whole thing end with Lee and Kara on the same side. I want something to be uncorruptable.
Last night I went to see Twilight for the tenth time. It was still awesome. I did notice a flaw in the screenplay. It's small but now that I noticed it it will bother. When the nomads come to the field and James does his, "You've brought a snack" Rosalie jumps to defend Bella but then in the scene in the garage she asks why she should help. My answer would be, because you did in the last scene. And how does Edward and the Cullens follow her to Mimi's when she never tells Alice and Jasper where it is located? Another plot flaw. But despite those things I still love it. I would like to go and see it with Belle and
Susan. And now New Moon officially has it's new director. Chris Weitz will be at the helm. I don't know if I have much faith in the guy who accepted the screenplay for Golden Compass with it missing the last chapter of the book. I hope we don't miss the last chapter of New Moon. I'm eager to hear what will happen with casting for NM. D has been keeping an eye out for sides but nothing yet. I am seriously leaning towards our Spring trip being Portland. I know it doesn't have the pizazz or sunniness of Hawaii but I would love to see Shanny and to get to play fungirl and go to some of the locations that the movie was shot at. It sounds like such fun and Hawaii isn't going anywhere. It will still be there the next year. So yeah I'm at 75% sure of going to the Pacific Northwest.
Today was a really busy day. We had to get me shoes for D's work Christmas party and I chose shoes that I don't believe I will wear that often over the ones I loved. I really regret getting them. The other ones were even on sale. I love shoes but why do they have to be such a labour when choosing them? Then we had to go to the comic book store and now we are up to date on Spike, Buffy and Angel. Our next mission is to actually read them. We are about five issues behind on Angel. Appalling. Then we went to Petco and got a friend for Nate. I haven't named him yet because I'm leaning towards either Jace or Seth, after Jace Wayland from The Mortal Instruments or Seth from Wicked Lovely and I would be heartbroken if I had to say either of them had died. So for now my little black moor goldfish is Little Fish. Then we went grocery shopping which was an ordeal because I was there. It had to be twice as expensive because I like to shop off the shopping list. It's like I'm the bane of D's life at times. I did get pickles, silk nog and raspberry sherbet. Score! Then we had to go to the boss's Christmas party. I was not excited about it because I have the social graces of a rock. He did have a nice house and the fresh pineapple was yummy. I even had a glass of bubbly and reminded myself that I find champagne god awful. We came home and made french toast with cinnabon bread. D's a master chef and it was so good. Oh and in between the grocery store and the party I wrapped D's Christmas gifts and I love Christmas. I keep wanting to talk to him about them and that would just be bad. I'm so excited for Christmas when he will open them and hopefully like them. I know three things that he will love. The rest is all up to the gods.
I have been reading some the last few days. I read both Novel of the Darkyn books I had and they were sort of disappointing. I will read the others in the series but these books were highly recommended for being good vampire books and they just aren't. I also read the first Others book, Wolf at the Door by Christine Warren and it was a good fantasy romance. The writing is sort of mediocre and the story isn't what I would call original but it had something to offer. Last night I started Darkfever by Karen Marie Moning and I was sort of blown away. I only got 70 pages in but the style and tone is incredible. It's categorized as romance but there isn't any romance in it so far and I would classify it as fantasy/suspense. It reminds me if you were to take Sookie Stackhouse books and Dante Valentine books and then threw in faeries, but better written then the two, then that is how I would describe it. I plan to read Stone of Tears by Terry Goodkind this week. I don't know if I am ready for it but I don't think I ever will be. I'm just going to have to jump in.
Tomorrow I'm meeting Team Logan at Mo's in Burbank at lunch. Tam will be there and I haven't seen her since last Christmas. I'll get to show Belle my new silver nail polish. She will love it. I hope to make plans with Susan and Belle to get lunch or dinner this week sometime. I don't see the group, well hardly ever. It'll be good to touch bases.
I have to sleep sometime soon. I am not tired. It's 3:30 in the morning. My sleep is a mess. Stupid red eye. I haven't been the same since. I doubt sitting here listening to music and updating my last.fm helps.
Today was a really busy day. We had to get me shoes for D's work Christmas party and I chose shoes that I don't believe I will wear that often over the ones I loved. I really regret getting them. The other ones were even on sale. I love shoes but why do they have to be such a labour when choosing them? Then we had to go to the comic book store and now we are up to date on Spike, Buffy and Angel. Our next mission is to actually read them. We are about five issues behind on Angel. Appalling. Then we went to Petco and got a friend for Nate. I haven't named him yet because I'm leaning towards either Jace or Seth, after Jace Wayland from The Mortal Instruments or Seth from Wicked Lovely and I would be heartbroken if I had to say either of them had died. So for now my little black moor goldfish is Little Fish. Then we went grocery shopping which was an ordeal because I was there. It had to be twice as expensive because I like to shop off the shopping list. It's like I'm the bane of D's life at times. I did get pickles, silk nog and raspberry sherbet. Score! Then we had to go to the boss's Christmas party. I was not excited about it because I have the social graces of a rock. He did have a nice house and the fresh pineapple was yummy. I even had a glass of bubbly and reminded myself that I find champagne god awful. We came home and made french toast with cinnabon bread. D's a master chef and it was so good. Oh and in between the grocery store and the party I wrapped D's Christmas gifts and I love Christmas. I keep wanting to talk to him about them and that would just be bad. I'm so excited for Christmas when he will open them and hopefully like them. I know three things that he will love. The rest is all up to the gods.
Tomorrow I'm meeting Team Logan at Mo's in Burbank at lunch. Tam will be there and I haven't seen her since last Christmas. I'll get to show Belle my new silver nail polish. She will love it. I hope to make plans with Susan and Belle to get lunch or dinner this week sometime. I don't see the group, well hardly ever. It'll be good to touch bases.
I have to sleep sometime soon. I am not tired. It's 3:30 in the morning. My sleep is a mess. Stupid red eye. I haven't been the same since. I doubt sitting here listening to music and updating my last.fm helps.
