12 posts tagged “city of ashes”

I went to Cassandra Clare's signing at Vromann's on Friday night. It was really packed. I believe they sold out of the books too. I got a paperback copy of City of Ashes to go with my paperback of City of Bones. I want collection in soft and hard cover. Cassandra read from her new project The Clockwork Princess. It's from a series called The Infernal Devices and she told me to expect it out in August or September of 2010. I think the dynamic will be similar to The Mortal Instruments. Jem and Will sound a lot like Alec and Jace. During the signing I asked her when the chapter she read would be up on the website and I explained that I had to read it to get it. I couldn't be read to... she gave me a copy and told me not to tell anyone because she didn't have enough for everyone. I loved her. She was sweet and funny. We discussed the part of the book that killed me to read and she said she had fun writing it because she knew it would be okay. I didn't know what to expect so it was painful for me. Maybe she is a bit of a bitch for that. :) I am going to reread City of Glass. I should read all three now that I can do them one after another.

So I think a good illustration of where my mind has been... last week I went 5 days without checking email and 3 without looking at my phone and Belle sent a message that there was a How To Be screener at the Burbank International Film Festival but I got it late and told her we wouldn't be able to go. D told me we were going and I was like what is he talking about... How To Be isn't being released. It was like I was resistant to believing or something. So I went on not connecting any of the pieces and found out late Saturday that we were meeting Belle and Susan at the screener and that we were all going. I enjoyed it. It has Robert Pattinson in it. It's about the neurotic musician who blames his parents for everything that is wrong with his life. He gets a self help guru to come to London from Canada to personally instruct him on how to have a better life and in the course of it everything falls a part. It's funny but awkward and pathetic at times. It will be screening in May again at First Glance Hollywood Film Festival and I would like to go see it again. I hope it gets released. I think Ronny was my favorite. Yeah.


So I have ebeen the world's worst BSG fan. I don't know what is up with me. I watched two eps and then got really stubborn. But no more. I have a plan. Nielle will be here visiting next month and we are watching all 10 eps. We can watch them 2 at a time and still have time for the Ren Faire and Salton Sea or San Juan Capistrano. I am making lots of plans for when she is here. I would take the car and drive her to some of the places alone.... but I can't handle the stress of driving anymore. Especially not in LA. So we will be stuck to the whim of D. Oh and I have to take her to Scoops for vegan ice cream for the win!

I am ruined! You know it was a bad habit that I had for years where I typed all in lower case without punctuation... 2 months into playing WoW and it exists again. It took almost a year to learn to write properly. So it's with a concerted effort that I have typed this entry. I have a role model though. I want to type like Terun. He doesn't type like a jackass at all. I think I'll just slow myself down and make sure that everything I type from now on is pretty and understandable.

As for what I've been doing in game... well I'm a 69. Just a few tens of thousands away from lvl 70. Then all the good stuff starts. We are finishing up Nagrand... we are 2 or 3 quests away from the achievement. We have been playing a lot still with Terun/Deathtoou. We did Ring of Blood as primarily a 3 man. We needed help with the final boss and with Durn: the Hungerer. I'm always pretty amazed by what the three of us can do together. I've been having some disagreements with G since T and I started Tali. He really resents the fact that we didn't stay with him and I get it. It was a betrayal but I wouldn't have been happy in Ring of Fire. I don't know how to get that across. I have been spending a lot of time talking to Thelyon and I wish, wish, wish I could convince him to come to Tali. I don't want to pressure him but he's the kind of people I want to surround myslef with. But hey he could feel about Tali the way I feel about RoF and Warlords. Who knows.  I've also been spending a lot of time with Sylianya. She is so cool. We spent the first morning killing big babies and walking to Lakeshire. The second morning we went to Exodar. And Tali... I mentioned it above but it's been a while since I last updated my Vox and I definitely never mentioned that T and I started our own guild. T and ali = Tali. It's small but growing. I hope it grows to be a very successful guild. Low key but fun.

I love this...

I am having a lot of fun playing WOW. D and I just leveled up to 7 last night and I got spells. I love it. I think it is safe to say that the 14 day trial is going to become a permanent thing. I think my favorite quest so far were the Kobold Tunnelers with the gold dust. It was hard. We couldn't have completed it on our own and it was harried at times but the loot was unbeatble. And I do love me some good loot. I was tempted last night to take a shiny seashell though because I LOVE seashells. Man, I love this game.

So the other day I sat down and read some of the comics I have that has just been staring at me. I got around to LOA Knight of Darness #2&#3. It's been about a year since I read the books and there are things that I forget about until they are happening. I do have to say that Blaise is seemless. I like how they have drawn Varian and so far no naked Merewyn so she doesn't have bulging sinew. Score one there. I am looking forward to more stuff with Derrick, Merrick and Erik. I'm pleased with it. Oh and I got a bonus surprise the other day. I found Darkness Within, the 3rd Lords of Avalon book will come out this year sometime. I don't know any more info than sometime, but I will just keep an eye open.

So it's been a while and it keeps slipping my mind to make mention of it but... I guess they offered Dakota Fanning the part of Jane in New Moon and I love the girl so all the more power to them getting her. I would like Taylor Lautner to grow a foot as well. Which one is more likely?

I'm almost done with City of Ashes at the gym. My theory of the week is that Simon lived through the sun coming up because he had Jace's blood in him and Jace is, as Valentine is the first to admit, altered. Only 53 more days until City of Glass. I can't wait. You can't begin to understand what a fiend I am for The Mortal Instruments. I love Jace to pieces. Oh I got too excited thinking about it. I want to jump up and down. If I could take only 3 books with me to the moon it would be these three. And I beat myself a bit because I bought the book, City of Bones, and didn't read it for two months. I could have fell in love that much sooner. Wasted time reading other books. When these are my soul mates. Speaking of soul mates. I realize that I owe Belle an apology. I finished The Vampire Academy and I didn't hate it. Once the school makes Rose cry I liked the book much more. And I do ship Rose and Dimitri even though I think I got spoiled for his fate and if it is so then I will go back to not liking the series much. I liked Christian and Mason right up to the end but Dimitri is my real fascination and the make out scene got my hopes up to crash them down with the scene in the gym. Augh. Boys are sometimes harsh. I also finished Shattered Mirror this morning. The book was frustrating (no happy ending), the heroine was impetuous to a fault, the most likeable characters are shit on by Sarah--I liked Christopher. There is this threesome vampire feeding that sounded a lot like really dirty, creepy sex. And there is unrequited love in a seriously fucked up way. I'll probably read it again but it weighed heavily on my mind, especially having just left Rose in an unhappy way this morning that I need a happy ending. I can't just read these frustrating books. My romantic heart doesn't sit easy with such things. I like soul mates. Don't make me read Twilight again.

So as I sit here, post finished, listening to Taking Back Sunday, I feel unable to close it out and have that be all. I've been feeling, and being more vocal, about this ever growing feeling of disenchantment with my life. I miss writing. It just feels like words are utilitarian now--they've lost their ability to mean deeper things. I'm feeling more detached. Distance seems to be growing between me and friends. The world is leached of real joy and in it's place is all these black and white things. Objects really, nothing personified. It makes me feel like hiding more behind things I can lose myself in, just so I can forget how little of life I live. And there is only one or two people that I can talk to because of these chasms that have leapt up where once I had faith in friends. They are just strangers who spend their lives in other worlds that don't even rub up against mine. I'm not even lonely really, I'm just utterly alone. No feelings but anger and fear, no dreams past reading books, nothing can make me happy. I don't see why people like me even exist. We find life support so we don't die but we don't have anything to live for. No future. It seems pathetic.

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I know I can't leave this alone but I really love this book and listening to it at the gym lets me pick up things I never would have before. Last night I got Valentine's answer to who's blood runs through Jace's veins and he says the blood of the angel. Jace takes this to mean he has shadowhunter blood but D has a theory that Jace is an experiment of Valentine to make the Angel on earth again. I don't know what to think about what Jace is, but I do know that he isn't Valentine's son. Which causes me great happy. The one thing was I forget how much Clary drives me to drink. She blames Jace because she loves him and for what happens to Simon and for the formation of the earth and there only being 24 hours in a day. I hate it. But without it I wouldn't love the end of the book so much. Because when she is going home after meeting with Jace and she is just devestated that is the money shot for me. I love her so much as she cries. Only 67 days until City of Glass. I know that there are three things that I hope happens in that book. Jace and Clary are together in the end. That they retrieve the Mortal Cup and Mellartech (God I think I butchered that name). And lastly Jocelyn wakes up and she and Luke are an item. I already hate Sebastian and I haven't been introduced to him.

I finally read #3 of Spike: After the Fall this morning. I have #4 with me too but I only read the one. I don't know I didn't like it as much as the other two. I thought it dragged a little. I did like the kiss between Spike and Illyria but it had too little of her in it to be a really good issue. Hopefully #4 which is the end of the series will be better. And I want it said... comic book Gunn sucks. I haven't liked new vampire Gunn at all. I want softie/hardass Gunn. The one that was caught singing the Pirates of Penzance. That was the Gunn that I liked. I also read my first issue of Lords of Avalon Knight of Darkness. I forget how much I didn't like the beginning of that book. I do like Varian but all that stuff with Narishka, who is simply the most hatable book character in all of Sherrilyn Kenyon's books. Well maybe Satara and Stryker. When the woman wants to write evil she really can do it.

Last night I watched the new Guild eisode and it was a filler episode. It had a couple funny parts but ultimately it was missing the wallop of previous episodes. Zaboo was his normal annoying part. Vork had some chuckle lines. But there was no Clara, Bladezz or Tink. I give it a 3 out of 5 stars. Wait I'm giving stars now? Who do I think I am?

This entry that I'm writing is 2/3 negativity I should balance it out with some good stuff. I am sore from working out last night. I did 50 minutes of strength training and 50 on the bicycle. I feel like I had a good workout. I'll see what today is like. I plan to just do cardio, no weights. Maybe I will do an hour. But working out does make me feel better. I'm still having low days but I try to do the gym anyway. Maybe with enough working out I won't need meds anymore.

Last night I read a historical romance that was suprisingly really good. It was by Kresley Cole, who now writes paranormal romances, and it had a good but not overweening amount of angst and obstacle but I liked it. I even liked the female character and it's a rare book where I like the female lead. But they introduce this cousin of Grant, the hero, and he's funny and amiable. You fall in love with him and then in the middle of the book he's abducted and forced to work a freight ship and they never find him and your just sort of like 'what?'. I thought for sure there would be another book but there isn't. It's the damnedest thing. I'm not sure I like not having resolution about cousin Ian. And what happened to Erica, Ian's love? YOU NEVER KNOW. Impossible. Wait this isn't getting any more positive.

Oh wait I know something positive. I am playing my arch nemesis on my Fantasy Hockey League and last night was a big face off because Pittsburgh and DC were playing each other. Now you have to understand that I love the Pens, they are probably my favorite team and Geno, Evgeni Malkin is one of my favorite players. After Vesa he is my favorite player. But he's on this Down with the Ducks team and I love kicking this guys ass. So I had to lean toward routing for the Caps. Not a problem because I love Brooks Laich and Ovechkin and watching Federov play. So it was a tense matchup and they were playing goal for goal until the third period when the Caps just dominated and they one the game. I'm still up on Down with the Ducks, which is just a stupid name, and I hope to keep it up. I was doing it good until I disparged about his dumb name. It was almost positive.

I'm at work with David today. We have to see the allergist this afternoon so I had to go to work with him. My plan is to sit and read. I brought Silver Kiss by Annette Curtis Klause and In the Forests of the Night by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes, so I have to decide which of the two I will read and I have Spike #4 and LOA #2 as well. I don't know I don't know which to read first. Then I'm going to lunch at Mika.... mmmmm veggie rolls. Then later it's back to the gym and then snuggled in for my day to myself.

I wonder why all my entries jump from topic to topic. I think it is because I lost the art of segue somewhere. I am just so eager to get all my thoughts out that they poop out of my head in little rabbit piles. I'd worry but I don't think anyone reads this on any regular basis. Well maybe Alison and I love her for replying to my posts.

I'll work on being more on the flipside rather than on the side of evil.

Tonight while at the gym listening to City of Ashes, I had an epiphany. While in the fairy court the fairy queen tells Clary that she and Jace have special talents. She says Jace's is the Angel's own gift. Now remember Clary keeps drawing and seeing Jace with wings. She even saw the rune to fly when they were on the Hotel Dumort. I think at somepoint Jace is going to fly. We already know he can jump heights over 15 feet, who says that wasn't some flying there. I think Clary is going to draw the rune for wings on him and he will have the Angel's own gift. I also paid close attention to the interactions between Jace and Clary. At one point after they kiss it says it's like losing a limb to her to not be kissing Jace more. I lean more to what D keeps telling me all the time where they have to be together in the end. It would just prove nothing at all where it to be the case where they were really brother and sister. Plus the fairy queen told him to ask his father who's blood flows through his veins and I think that is telling.

Today I had to see Dr. Scott and it was a good visit even if he did increase my meds. He said that it seems as if I'm doing really well even if I am cycling some. I have to go back in three weeks so well see how things are going then.

I watched the new Guild episode this morning and it was pretty funny. Although the one before it really made me laugh. I like this season. I like what they are doing with Codex and The Stuntman. The part with the eyeball was so hilarious. I kind of think Zaboo might be moving in with her and that just bums me out because he's so annoying. Maybe Clara will take him in as a babysitter.

Tomorrow is going to be a reading day. I haven't had much me time in the last few weeks. D's been home and I love that, but it really cuts into having the book time. Tomorrow night is hockey. Hopefully I won't sleep through the third period. We shall see.

P.S. I worked hard at the gym today and bicycled for 16 miles.

And as is if yesterday wasn't good enough I found that when I turned on the images in my KMM newsletter that it had a pic of the cover of Dreamfever! I can't wait for it. I found all the books in hardcover so I can have a nice set of them. I'll have to re read the set once I get them.  And it's not long now until the end of March and City of Glass. I'm listening to City of Ashes at the gym and it just keeps those fires burning. I think that it is just what's newer in my mind but I want Dreamfever much more. It could be that horrible end where the world is folding in on itself and Barrons isn't there to save her. I'd die for him is a terrible way to end a book about surviving. Back to City of Glass... Cassandra Clare had a contest for ARCs of the book and one person made Magic Cards with the characters on them and they were so neat. Of course my favorite is Jace Wayland. Then I loke the Alec Lightwood one. I wish these actually existed.

I'm of half the mind to watch some TV today. This is highly unusual. I have the gym today so anything I would want to watch gets cut into by that. And then we are going to go and meet Jamie in LBC for some Indian. By then this idea will have burned off. Tomorrow I'm meeting Nicky online at 11:30 so it is out then too. Then I have Dr. Moore. I have plans to read Lord of Misrule sometime in the next 24 hours too so that leaves me really short on time. But I have Sinchornicity, which D found for me and Lost in Austen. D is going to have Hex come through on Netflix this week. I will have to readjust my mental thinking to work on this.

New Years Resolutions!!
I made a few... alright more than a couple. I was generous with my resolve and not doing so great on a few of them. But I will list them here so that I can look back and know which ones I need to work on.

1. Go to the gym three times a week. 3 hours cardio and 1.5 weight training.
2. Lose 15 lbs and keep it of.
3. Be more mindful of my hygiene. 
4. Do something social each week.
5. Read 5 books a week.
6. Walk more.
7. Clean the house one a month.
8. Keep on top of the kitty litter.
9. To let my hair grow. No cutting it.

I don't know how well anyone else does with resolutions. The best I ever did was making it to October as a vegan. Then cheese happened. I don't know how well I will do this year having made so many... but I figure I'll see and maybe one or two will stick.

On one of the feeds I have someone capped the Twilight movie and unfortunately they didn't have the end credits. I badly want the bite that is in black and white at the end of the movie. There is a bit of DVD release info around the internet on how there will be a regular, special and Blu-Ray edition. I will want one that I can see all the extras with.  I can't wait until New Moon goes into production. Also in March. A lot will be going do in the month of March.

I had a good run on my Lion & Lamb Google feeds earlier today. I feel a little at odds and ends since there is nothing more to read there at the moment. I found the picture to the left a few days ago and I don't know if I'm jealous or grossed out. I don't know if I want Rob biting me until we get to know one another much better than passing acquaintances. Now if you add alcohol to the equation I might whistle another tune but as things stand sober, I want the guy to keep his teeth to himself. I really have no libido. This just goes to prove it. Today I found the picture to the right from a French magazine. It totally looks to me like a image manipulation but if that were the case you'd think they'd give him a better body. I like the guy a lot so I'm not bagging on him to be mean. I just think that picture is not flattering. Last night D and I watched the Leno with Rob and Heidi Klum was on it and it was so funny. Rob admitting that he had no sense of personal hygeine or personal style was just hilarious. The guy forgot to add no publicist coaching him in things he shouldn't say. I hope to one day meet him. I don't care if I have to wait to be sixty to do it. I'll go to every Twilight sequels premiere and I'll travel to the Hot Topic in SF and beat the crazy out of fourteen year olds. I want to meet him and just get to see if he's as big of a goober in person as he seems to be in all these interviews. So that is one of my personal goals. I don't have many personal goals anymore so I plan to work sincerely towards this one.

Today is my last day in Alaska. It's been rife with conversations about the next vacation. I don't know if we are going to go to Hawaii or not. We might do a trip to the Pacific North West instead. If we do then we would be able to see Shanny Shea. Or maybe we will go to New Orleans. Who knows at this point. All I am sure of is that I will not be doing anything the week of March 23, 2009. City of Glass comes out that week and I will not be missing it for anything or anywhere. Now just wait... that will be the week that Rob is somewhere where I can meet him and I'll have to trump City of Glass with the opportunity. Jace comes first in my heart though. Jace and I have spent two books together and I know first hand that he is a goober.

So we are all packed and I have to grab the books I'll read on the plane and make sure that my iPhone is set to play the rest of City of Bones and City of Ashes if I finish COB. I might buy a magazine for the plane ride between Fairbanks and Anchorage. It's going to be a truly hellish night of travel.

Last night I went to see Twilight for the fifth time. Due to some narcoleptic-like issues I fell asleep at the fight scene. If you know how I get when I'm tired you will know that it had nothing to do with the movie and everything to do with not being able to deal with life after 9PM. I love the movie more and more with each veiwing. With every new imperfection. For the last week or week and half I have been playing the soundtrack in serious rotation. My favorite song on the album is by Blue Foundation, it is called Eyes on Fire and it's so pretty. I've also played Rob's songs with every intention of making myself sick of them. It hasn't happened so far. I'm not a fan of the Lullaby. It's not how I imagined it and it doesn't hold up to multiple listenings. I like the remix of Bella's Lullaby more than the actual thing. The piano piece doesn't sound like what Edward would compose for her though. It lacks a dark quality. I do so LOVE the score Carter Burwell did for the movie. It's played most notably when Bella is looking up The Cold One after Edward drives her home from Port Angeles. It continues until she leads him up into the woods. I want that song and it is no where on the soundtrack. D promised me he would lift it from the actual movie if need be. After the movie comes out on DVD I mean. Oh and I love the Linkin Park song... the lyrics are pretty. Chester rocks the pretty words. A really weird thing is that I used to be able to learn song lyrics after like the third listen and I am positively lost with them now but I pretend I know them and sing out loud the wrong words with gusto. I'll admit when there is no body to watch I even dance. But for that to happen I have to pretend I'm drunk and the world is unpopulated.

Alaska in 17 hours. I was up at 3AM this morning. I don't know if it is mental retardation or pre-travel nerves but I was bright eyed and alert in the early hours of the AM. Which is really nice so that I can shower before we have to leave. I wanted to last night but read above of near narcoleptic hoo-haw. Alaska. I am so very excited. Although I can't even conceive of how cold it is going to be. Not even in a nightmare can I imagine. I hope it doesn't hurt. I have such thin SoCal blood these days. There will be a million pictures I think.

I haven't read a book in 4 days. It feels absolutely unnerving. I tried to read Amelia Atwater-Rhodes book Hawksong today in the waiting room before therapy but the receptionist are the most annoyingly chatty people on earth and I kept getting distracted. I only read 3 pages before listening to the audiobook of City of Bones which reminds me that I have to at City of Ashes audiobook to my iPhone because I'm close to finishing City of Bones. And D is excited because I am going to start Wizard's First Rule as I promised. I have been liking Legend of the Seeker and where as I do understand the two are only losely related I still like it. I want to see the romance part of the story. Go Richard. I did also bring two other books that I can't remember and City of Bones. I brought 4 books for 6 days and Wizard's First Rule is a thousand or so pages. Luckily it's dark for 20 hours a day.

This has been a long few days for me. I have been touched by something diabolical and Belle and I spent the last two days submerged in Twilight fandom and it has been sick (I'm not even sure I use that in a good way or a bad way). On Sunday I battled some not so hot morning issues and we went to the Borders in Westwood to gather around and see Peter Facinelli, Jackson Rathbone, Michael Welch, Solomon Trimble and Christian Serratos do a quick round of questions and later do a signing. We didn't get there early enough for the signing. People were there at 5pm Saturday to wait in line and the first 70 got bands for the signing. But Belle had a hook up and we got to meet Michael and get our picture with him. He also signed my Kids with a Cause t-shirt. He was really nice. Of course I can't picture him in my head from Joan of Arcadia days but I think he's a good Mike Newton. I, of course, didn't think to bring my camera and only had my iPhone with me for both this day and Monday which speaks to my lack of preparation. I really am working on half of what a normal mind works with.

On Monday we got up at 6am to be in Westwood by 7:30 to get in line for the Twilight Premiere audience. There were already 400 people ahead of us and some people had been camping out since Friday night. It was utterly insane. Belle and I settled in with knitting and City of Ashes to pass the time in the unbelievable heat, 90F. You can believe me when I say it was ridiculous the number of annoying, loud and stupid people. And maybe we can own up to the stupid part of that ourselves but it was painful. We waited until noon and then they let us move and it took 2 hours for us to get our wristbands to get into the holding area. Then it was waiting on your feet for 3 hours with no room to stretch and people started pusing and shoving early. They did come by and gave us water. My guess is that they were worried that people would pass out. Then they gave us little rubber bracelets that say Twilight and then 11-21-08. Finally they gave us t-shirts. The smallest size was a medium and it was pretty big. Then it was more waiting. I was just happy I could text D because I desperately needed to get my mind off the crowds and there was nothing there but people which does not soothe me. So D saved the day. And the cute small child named Lindsay who stood in front of us who was totally adorable. They handed out raffle tickets to win passes for the premiere and I told Belle I would ditch her if I won and it was only one ticket. Then when we heard it was two, I told her I still ditch her and take Kellan.

The first one to show was Michael Welch and then it is kind of a blur. We were stading at the end of the runway, right before the platform for the interviews and it was a difficult place to be because a lot of actors, *cough*KStew and Taylor*cough* blew right by and didn't even cast a look in our direction. Not to rant but I don't think that Taylor is that big of a star that he can snub fans, not that I am saying I'm one of them but there were several around me, this early in the game. It's such an arrogant move. Kellan was beautiful and he was big and brawny and sweet to the fans. He signed tons of things and took pictures with what seemed like everyone. I think the best description of him would be dapper. Mhmmm.

Jackson was incredible. I haven't been a big Jackson fan because some of the the MTV interviews with him just turned me off. But he was just so nice. He came to our section on three separate occassions to get everyone. He took his time and seemed genuinely appreciative. I was really impressed and I totally have had my mind changed. I would say that I am now a fan.

Sol came through and people behind me were surprised that he was even in the movie because he had such a small part and they were disappointed in the fact that he's this thin wirery guy. He seemed to eat up the attention though. I don't know how I feel about him but I was hoping he'd come over and give me Krys's phone number or last name.

Justin Chon looked really good but I wasn't able to find any pics of him. I think he was the second of the night to show. He kind of got lost in the interview section and was never to be seen by me again.

Peter Facinelli was there with Jennie Garth who just looks beyond beautiful althought I hated the dress she wore. It looked like a Grecian looking garbage bag. Both took time to sign. I thought it was awesome that Jennie signed autographes as it wasn't her event. They looked really good together. He's a handsome devil.

Cam was a freaking lunatic. He was a ham and cheeseball. Belle maintains that he is d-bag and I have to agree because he is, but I love him to death. I was hoping to get close enough to him to tell him that I know where he shops. I want to see if I can unnerve him if I tell him we live near one another.

I didn't care too much about Ashley. I feel bad for not being excited about her but I was blown away by Rachelle's stunning beauty. She looked breathtaking. I wish I could have heard the interview she gave. The one draw back of being there in person.

A couple of others that I didn't get too excited about were Billy Burke, Elizabeth Reaser, Gil Birmingham--who teased fans with his attentions. It seemed cruel. Sarah Clarke was there too. Oh! Edi was there and he was so cute. He was dressed real nice and he seemed to be caught between being a ball of energy and very serious. Again another interview I would have likd to have heard. Christian was gorgeous. Anna Kendrick was there and sort of flew below my radar. Melissa Rosenberg was there and she looked about 20 foot tall and really elegant but I wanted actors.

So who's left? Kristen and Rob. First like I said before, I'm not sold on KStew and I won't have my mind changed until I see the movie. Her attitude towards fans is a growing amusement. She called them retarded at one point so it is all kinds of fun to watch what comes out of her mouth. I really would have loved to see what would have happened if she had to interact with the fans last night. I thought that last night she looked really pretty. Not at all the brokeass whore that she could have looked like. But her facial expressions in every picture seem to bleed through her general unhappiness to be there and I don't know who I feel worse for her or the fans.

Now Rob... He surprised me on multiple counts. He was dressed up and not in a button up shirt undone to his nipples. His hair started out combed back and not a duck's butt. He was not the last one to arrive. He was clean shaven. I really expected him to show up in typical Rob fashion and I love him dearly but I put nothing he does as a surprise these days. But no, no. Rob was gorgeous and stylish even. Although in my opinion his pants were a little tight looking but I blame his stylist for that. By the time he got up to us his hair was all silly but that is because the man has a serious nervous habit and it couldn't be helped. He went out of his way to sign things for fans and play the doting actor. I totally feel for the man. He's been elevated to near god status in the fandom and he is handling it like it's nothing at all. He doesn't even get to move without the soundtrack of screaming girls. No one can ever hear him. Poor guy. What happens when he leaves acting for a music career?

More pictures when Bell sends hers. In this video you can see Belle in the crowd, she's in the pink.

Last night I finished Night World Vol. 1 and I went back and reread some of the parts I really liked. I wasn't sure I was going to read it again so I wasn't sure I should keep it but I think I will. The character I liked most was Ash Redfern. I read the short story they have on L.J. Smith's website that is the conclusion and it was such a different style and ridiculousness that I didn't enjoy it at all. That all said, I will get Vol. 2 when it comes out. Neurosis R' Us.

This morning I read Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist and I'm more or less on the fence about it. I didn't think it was crap, but I don't think I can say that I loved it. I didn't like the writing style too much. Too much internal monologue and not enough dialogue. It made me feel like nothing was happening. It will be interesting to see how they play it out in the movie. And I agree with Susie and Belle, Michael Cera is not a good Nick. I wish it were Ben Barnes. I haven't had a good Ben Barnes post in months.

I'm having a breakdown over City of Ashes and I am so obsessed it's not even amusing. Last night I went back to The Mortal Instruments website and I read the excerpt for City of Glass in hopes of trying to make myself feel a little better, which it did a little, in some ways. The thing is I am a bottle of overflowing anxiety because I just don't know what will happen next. The excerpt put to rest just the fact that she wasn't unwriting the past that she's made at the end of City of Ashes. Which was my main fear. But I need to reread the books. I need more of them. D is reading City of Bones now. So when he finishes it I can start. It's a very compelling story and Jace is such a hero! I am so totally in love with him. I also think I will have to talk about it in therapy.

Robert Pattinson will be in the new issue of Interview magazine. The picture to the right is from it so you can see how pretty he will be in it. I also found the two other Italian posters. I will gladly trade Italy their's for ours. It's not even that long to the movie. Hopefully time will pass as quickly for the City of Glass release as it has for Twilight. Of course it doesn't hurt that Twilight got nudged up a few weeks by the powers that be. And I'm glad the The Mortal Instruments doesn't have a movie deal because I already went through this mindless obsessiveness with Twilight and the pointy feelings I'm already having for the books of TMI is enough. I don't need more things to lose my ever loving mind to.

Today is a therapy day and I am listening to my playlist and I should be getting ready. I'm going to be late but since I don't think I'm going to eat today it shouldn't be a problem. Although the bus will still be ugly. I have a few things to talk about. The main one is this general back slide I'm doing. D has even taken notice of it. I mean I'm not doing bad. Just all the sudden I've started losing ground. No more progress. Maybe that is natural. We can't always move forward. Only sharks keep moving and I'm more of feline. And with that I should really be going.